the day i realized you weren’t just for me anymore
but you were now for someone else too
i found dry sweat in every sheet and skin crease
i died with the daylight
dreamt wild
reincarnated myself
it was all building/rising/threatening
a memorial of the moment when the sadness turned to anger
my taste buds pure
lips moist and patient
searching
for specs of sugar left behind
from the woman i had been when you combed my scalp with grease
and the sun was spilling over
my wrists like blood on the 29th day
the tasting
started in the front of my mouth
my pallet diluted it
as it drifted back
into my esophagus
desperate for crumbs to take with me
into tomorrow.
this time cellos played/i gasped
my silk dress streamed rivers/lakes/ocean currents
i caressed/licked and/attended to
grandma was there crying